The chill of an artic wind as it brushes against my skin

Pulls me for a moment to the truth, that can be found only in winter.

No glamour, no glitz, no flower, no foliage:

Nothing to cover, hide, or obscure.

The slightest imperfection shows:

Stripped of all manors of concealment ,

Before me as perfect and beautiful.

I take this moment of the midnight suburban glow

Against the low, grey snow clouds to admirer:

Center and connect with all this world has to offer;

In rebellion to all society tries to force.

I stare at you and take a deep breath

My plain, wooden, ivy covered fence,

Draped in young winters snow.

I am reminded that beauty should not be conquered,

Rather observed and let go.

In the half-light of a spring morning
I touch her skin so soft, so warm
A thousand times before, as simple as a breath
We caress and melt to simple form
Our minds pondering the moment
Bodies comfortable and relaxed
Focused on nothing, enjoying
Souls basking in fulfillment
Preceding nothing, Prior to all
Serene and perfect this moment
As I hold my love, auras merge
I boast I have lived, for I have lived this moment.

Sitting, cold, shivering
Stripped of pride, left wanting.
I have come face to face with my soul.
To know, to know.
I am the cause of so much pain,
Unable to give, unable to live.
To know, to know.
I have felt and I have been numb,
I have wept over a dew covered petal
In the sunrise and enraged
At the one who wants me.
To know, to know.
My life has no meaning,
Still my soul struggles to make it so.
I have trusted none but demanded trust.
I have given nothing but demanded all,
To know, to know.
Shackled by my thoughts, hopeful to change,
I sit cold, alone in my life I have made,
To know, to know.

How silent my footsteps are in the stern wind of an October night
As though I do not exist.
I can feel and hear but not see the wind
As the leaves rustle, crush, cease to exist.
I am nothing, an instrument of time
To be used as a simple pawn
To hurry the leaves to their next state
And so shall I be discarded with the utterance of a mime.
There will be no glory, no tears, nothing
I am everything and nothing.
I am great and weak.
I am but nothing.

Moving through the darkness
Flowing freely to seize my heart
Embracing me as a womb
Darkness to rip out my heart
If only the world were so kind
To this soul so blind
To have mercy, pity
So in death, peace I find
It's embrace holds not to nourish
But to infest its hate,to punish
So in torment I lye
How divine to die
This beautiful creature
Embraces me like a womb

Alone in the darkness
Alone in my head
The only change is a blink
Once the soul is dead
Face to face with my demons
I embrace the pain as a lover
Take me-take me-become me
I only wish to feel
Beaten-broken-defeated
I only wish to feel
My existence is bliss
My pain is this
I have felt my lovers kiss
I reach out to hold my lover
And am greeted with the knowledge
That she is holding another
My demons mock me
Laugh at me, and still I stand
Untouched-unfettered-foolish
Tears cover my face-blind me
Another has taken my existence
Crushed-crumbled-devastated
Fate it self is amused at my resistance
I am but an afterthought-before nothing
A cry, a sigh, I die
I only wanted to experience you
Become you-All you
Pushed aside-I have become nothing
Too deep, too far gone
Too much inside myself
I ventured out only to be shoved
Back to the hell from which I came.

Chaos is order yet undefined
Searching is reason yet unrewarded
Wanting is a void yet unfilled
Tears are the vessel to the destination.
In time all shall come and all shall come to pass.

I walked to the shore of my world
And cast a stone unto the great unknown
Much to my surprise I could see the water rise
Even though I couldn't tell just where the stone fell
I went to sleep the next morning with the moon set
Salty taste on my tongue and soaking wet
I woke the next evening with bloodshot eyes
Drawn back to the site of my demise
I felt the rush of the world unknown
Flooding in to drown my soul
As I gasp for air in the salty sea
Pleading with the powers over me
I tasted the world I was to never know
Forever innocents lost as experience flows
She was an Angel
She was the devil
She was everything I had to reveal
And nothing more than what I wanted to feel
Pulling me out with her salty flesh
Saline smile and arms out stretched
I climbed once more up on board
One more ride on the falling tide
And as I gasp for air in the salty sea
Dealing with her powers over me
I tasted her world I should have never known
Forever innocents lost as experience flows
(Chorus)
I tasted her, I should never have known
Forever innocents lost as experience flows

Crystal runs through my brain
Its icy sharp is soothing
Pushing to the edge all that is me
Her pale translucent thoughts
Cause and prevent my pain
Entering one exiting the other
All is lost, found on one point of light
Night, day the only difference is a blink
A wink from the crystal
Pushing my reality farther
One moment of history is today
Yesterday, any day
The only change is where I stand
Sleep, cry and hide
Shards of thought are where I play

Sitting staring through this vast essence
Known to man as time
A blink, a snap, and all too fast
the essence flees from the mind.

In this moment of eternity
I am blessed with your presence
Which I chose to forever be
I shall merge with your essence.

I shall pledge from this moment
My entire life to you
My love shall always be sent
And death itself shall not subdue.

And as the bleak eons of darkness
March away across the heavens
Burning stars with their sharpness
Shall never sever our oneness.